Happy Birthday Ho Si Xian ;DDD
Funky Fourteen!!
And also to others who are April babies too yeahs! Especially to Naomie and WuYou <333

Anyways, today was a loooooooong day! but the best thing was i got alot of free food! like in them morning leanne gave me hello panda, then ms chen gave me oreo cos I went for chem supp during lunch, then home econs we got to taste others food ;DD heee. But the worst part was chinese exam -.- 2 hours of boring comprehension and I was chionging like hell in the front part. aiyaa D: WHATEVER.

And miracle miracle. I actually paid attention during GEOGRAPHY?! omg, I m amazed. It's like CKF and me were continuing that food story (;DD) during the lesson but my ears were still opened and I managed to take down some notes too! woah ;DD

Then piano recital. After school. Actually we didn't even plan to go, but waiting for ckf got the best of us, so we (sx ma me) just went there to listen. The person was uper good can, just that I dun really appreciate it heh heh. And And. After that the four of us hang out at J8, it's like there's no other place to go -.- And I finally got the second sequel to Marked! OMG. Betrayed <333 eek, House of Night is the best of the best! and it's only like $13!!!!! i thght i still need to go to malaysia to get the whole series! Then we actually saw Mrs Amy, shopping in G2000 woah.

Okay, I shan't go to details. I need to go sleep like NOW?!

Admit it. Kpop is superbly addictive. Nearly everyone I know love a kpop band or singer. And almost everyone loves a few of melodramas from korea.

Ranging frm oldschool song like 'Now' by FIN.K.L (they are really really good singers! Lee Hyo Ri[screams]) to ballads like 'Bolero' by DBSK; then to gayish song like "Making a lover" by SS501 or "Fight the Bad feeling" by T-max then to Sexy song like "Mirotic" by DBSK (;DD) or "Nobody" by WonderGirls (not really lah); to cutesy songs like "Kissing you" by SNSD, meaningful song like "Into the New World" by SNSD (Again!) or "Stand by Me" by ShiNee; to sad love songs like "Because I'm Stupid" or "Something happen to my heart" both by SS501 (<3) and happy songs like "Dynamite" by AST'1 and also "Heaven" by BigBang (!) or really catchy songs like "Sorry Sorry" by Super Junior.

And is ShinHwa considered Oldschool too? There had been famous for 9 years Oh my godness. I hope DBSK is as famous as them, but they already are anyways. XD

And also, not forgetting their awesome and killing looks! (not that they don't go for plastic, but still!)



























Know who's the last band in the picture? heehee! it's AST'1! and OMG, their songs are really really good! They debuted last year with '1234 Back' and also sang "Yearning of the Heart" for Boys Before Flowers drama! Plus, they just release their first mini album (?!) and there are quite a few songs like "Dynamie", "Not me" and "Why" which are pretty good!

So yeahs, Kpop is cool, addictive, fun, amazing, fantabulous, and the list go on. I don't care if people loves Jonas Brothers or whatever band out there. No offence but they seriously do suck somehow. Boo. At least DBSK got a larger fanbase than them! ;DDD

And my day was superb today. Loads of laughters and joy! hee!
And I really need to run. There's chinese exam on wednesday, which totally ruin my mood when I think of it now. 2hours of sickening comprehension, ahhhh ><

I'm gonna do this quiz.

'If you enjoyed your primary school years, you'll do it.
If you have nothing else to do, you'll do it.
If you're here to read the questions/answers and pretend to hate to do it, deep down you'll still do it.

This tag is so fun because the answers can go on and on.
Read if you miss your PRIMARY school years.

1) Which school did you go to?
Chong Fu Primary School


2) What classes were you in?
1G, 2Respectful, 3Gracious, 4Respectful, 5Sincere, 6Sincere<3

3) What was/were your favourite lesson(s)?
PE<333

4) If you could remember, what time was your recess?
ehhh. 9.10? i only rmb the fighting-for-seats-in-the-hall thing XD


5) List down your favourite food/snacks.
Waffle ;DDD

Style

1) Did you have a nickname way back in primary school?
tons. but only my best friens called me weird ones ;D

2) How did you wear your socks?
normal?

3) Have you been suspended due to the way you put on your uniform?
ahahas. i WAS a prefect lah

4) Were you given plenty of reminders about your appearance?
the time where my hair become super short then it gotten all messy.

5) Who did you look up to when you were in primary school?
eeh. the teachers? u nid look up at them while they teach rite? I was so short laah.

Punishment

1) Name one memorable scene where you were punished in front of the whole class.
the unspeakable. but it's during my pri 5 exam...

2) How many times did you skip class? What were you doing?
nothing lah. except maybe hanging out in the toilets -.-

3) Give one scene where you escaped from being caught/punished.
cheating during exams!

4) Did you vandalize any school property
my table was already vadalized enough for me to vandalize somemore -.-

5) Did you ever make any teacher cry?
SOMEBODY did.

6) Who was your favourite teacher?
Ms Tang ;DDDD

7) Describe your DM.
Niceeee but BIASED -.-

8) Who was the funniest/weirdest/loudest teacher?
ehh, mrs ong, mdm eng, mrs lim (BOOM!)

Social Circle

1) Were you popular back then?
weeeell.

2) Were you in a big group of boys/girls or small ones?
5 besties ;D

3) Who were your best friends?
Nyssa, Wu You, Claudia, Gee Kit, Si Yi

4) Did you and your friends have nicknames?
Totally! We used it to suan each other laah ;DD

5) What were your favourite memories of you and your friends?
hanging out!

Crushes/Lovers

1) Who was your first crush?
SHHHHHHHH!

2) Are you in good terms with your last crush?
ehhhhhh.

3) Did you ever had a relationship with anyone in your primary school?
FRIENDSHIP!

4) Have you ever made out in school?
absolutely not?

Closing Ceremony

1) How did primary school changed you?
it makes me become uglier. boo!

2) Sing one verse of your school song.
我们欢呼，我们歌唱，歌唱我们的崇福
i kena still sing it during assembly in nanyang -.-

3) What was your favourite question?
Who you like arhs. I WAS DAMN Kiasu lah -.-

4) Who/what will you remember from your primary school?
My best friends and 6Sincere <333

5) Any memories you will not forget.
heee. Everything. I still miss CFPS T.T'

And done!

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But seriously, something is really wrong with my heart.

I keep thinking about it the whole damn day. It's like something like i-don't-care which becomes bigger and bigger and finally the disappointment and anger exploded inside my heart. Disappointment and anger at myself. I really hated it.

It's like looking back at the old days again. I guess I still couldn't get over it yeahs? I felt jealous. Why are they better than me? What had I not done? But I was not in the position to say anything. It's my choice to pon sessions, my choice to end it, my choice to leave it behind me. I should not complain, because I don't have the ability to consider myself as part of the team. I am not eligible at all.

Then during band, i bottled up those indecent feelings and went too high and eventually became really really tired and quiet. Then i can't concentrate on the rythmns and pieces and pissed everyone off.

And then I felt like crying. It's like I was badly holding back those tears and stuffs. I couldn't speak properly, and I probably looked like a zombie. I thoroughly broke down in the toilet. Okay, not sobbing like some baby, but the tears just flow out and I had absolutely no reason to cry at all! I was at a complete loss.

I don't want to cry over it again. I got nothing to do with it now.

You know, somehow life really sucks. God is fair because the world is unfair.

Woah. I am totally completely in love and entranced with composing. Like seriously. I hope the project really goes well this time. And you know what? this whole project just makes my yearning of working as a musician even bigger ;D

My whole world practically revolves around music. Music Music Music. Piano, Dance, Singing, CCA, My handphone, My mugging time, My slacking time, My sleeping time, My dreams. Every single thing that I do, no matter how tired or depressed or stressed I was, I am surrounded by music.

I think I will die without music. Maybe I will just marry Mr Music someday and live happily ever after. Not that I am unfaithful to Tuba Hubby though.
Ahh, Tuba Hubby shall be my new nickname for my tuba ;D
The old one was Tubby -.- it's so lame I didn't let anyone know until now

I finally realised how much we had drifted apart. It's not alot, but it's enough to make me cry.

'Best friends forever'.
is that statement taken for granted? Just cos we were best friends once, doesn't make us best friends till our deaths. The 'forever' in our heart, never does exist. It's just an empty promise make by friends who knows they will drift apart one day.

I believe in best friends.
But I will never believe in forever.

Seriously.

I can't keep up with the pace earth is turning. The day is just zooming by without me noticing (oh, except for boring lessons like stupid chinese and blah) and then I realised another day just ended. I am annoyed you know. I have this whole pile of shit homework and projects to do and I don't think I am efficient enough to swallow the whole load by this week. Almost everything's deadling is this week!

And I am in a serious case of procrastinating. Time to freak out, because history is just 3 days away and the only thing I know is Birch dying in his own bathtub. GAH. what had I been doing this few days! Gaming, rushing shows, and mugging at midnight with absolutely nothing going into my small and tiny head. Maybe only the song lyrics I had been listening over over again.

I am in hot soup. Really really hot and scalding soup. And here I am, still blogging and going quiz crazy in FB. And probably going crazy over Boys Before Flowers again. Because I just found out there's this amzing special addition of songs by the main cast in the show with some other band like ASt'1 singing really really amazing and nice songs. And I am officially hooked(not that I wasn't in the first place -.- But).

Life isn't going easy on me. Not with the pile of stinky stuffs to finish and endless projects. And also when I have the worst addiction to korean shows and songs and whatever blah boy band, adding to my current computer addiction, I will probably have to pass up my homework finally to my teacher in my next life then.

I was just done with Boys Before Flower. The whole serie. Seriously, and I was complaining about wasting time on useless stuffs but who say BBF is a useful stuff! But still, I feel quite guilty for using 3hours to complete the 6 last episodes that I had missed cos of hectic weekday schedules.

Allow me to fangirl for a little:
There is only one word to describe the show. It was fantabulous! and I seriously mean it! For my past history, I had never actually finished a drama that makes me wait ages. For instant, if a show needs 10 weeks to finish broadcasting, I will just give up on watching it around like the 5th episode. But this is different! Although it's like my how-many-times watching this type of show (4 times for Hana Yori Dango and 2 times for Meteor Garden), the story in the korean version has a much more refreshing storyline (like Yi Jung and Ga Eul ending up being together though they werent suppose to in the japan and taiwan version) and also the characters in there are much much more handsome/beautiful than the other versions! Like KimBun who act as Yi Jung. He's like OMG-ing shuai (comapared to the taiwan guy 朱孝天? omg, he's like WTH? no offence) and and! Lee MinHo and Kim Joon. They are just newbies and they just bring out their emotionals really really nicely in the show. I especially love episode 24 when JunPyo (acted by Lee MinHo) found out that his father wasnt actually dead and how he acted out the fury at his mother. It was fantastic! and also! Kim Jyun Hyung! hahas. I have a tendency to fall in love with any guy who act as Hanazawa Rui/Yung Ji Hoo and ahhhh he's the perfect choice! It's like he's the most pathetic guy in the show cos he always end up giving up the girl he loves and Hyun Jyung act of loneliness really gets people to feel sorry for him. Seriously! And the girl, ehh, Gu Hye So? her character name was Geum Jan Di and I think she's really good in portraying the character's determination and grief especially when she was forced to leave JunPyo alone cos his mum was harassing her loved ones. So ya ;DD And the songs are really really nice ;DDDDDDD

Okay. Just leave the front alone. But currently I love listening to 'Something happen to my heart' by two singers from both AST'1 and T-max. ;DD It's also the second ending song of Boys Before Flower!

I think I had become a complete computer-addict.

I mean the first thing I do when I got home is on the computer; the first thing I think about the morning I wake up is whether my computer is fully charged and blah blah. I mean WHAT'S SO INTERESTING ABOUT USING THE COMPUTER! The only stuff I do is youtube fb and blogger. gah. and possibly downloading alot of random songs and deleting them at the end of the day. OHOH and revist and revisting mysoju.com cos I thought the episode I wanna to watch will miraculously appear once I get there. And everytime is so disappointing. Then I will begin the whole cycle of surfing the net again. And by the time I look at the clock, 3h had flew by with me doing TOTALLY ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. >.<

Oh no Oh no, and I haven finished mugging exams. WTH!? Gah. I better stay away from my room for the time being. byebye

Okay I shan't emo. Cos I think I had vent out enough yesterday night.

Smile Smile. The award really doesn't matter. We are not a silver band, we are NANYANG CONCERT BAND. Even Ms Chong said we are awesome! Stupid judges. They don't know how appreciate beautiful music.
Oh and they are now currenlt deciphered by me as: "unfeeling, heartless homosexually gays" Yes duh. nearly all the GWH bands are boys.
Okay I shall not complain.

But after syf is section dinner! hahas. too bad we missed the fun at KAP, cos almost the whole band was ther T.T yes. I was think of gatecrashing the party but whatever. I finally gotta eat at Swirls hohoho. And Cheryl and Jacey are vry nice alumni too (oh, just that they don't have a young sense of humour) but overall section dinner no. 2 is a great success. I think the shopkeeper got pissed off by our laughter though D: and the ice-creams are niceee! <3

And GENIUS Alicia crap alot of lame jokes crack alot of jokesthis few days -.- hahas but this got stuck in my head and they were all annoyed cos I keep repeating the same joke.

one finger is a spear. SO what's this! (shaking the one finger)
Go guess yourself. I remembered that cos I guess it correctly hohoho

And there's another one! But we use this to suan other people la.

从前有一只熊。熊的前面是一只纯白的白兔，右边是一只花猫，左边是一只黑狗 请问熊的后面是什么动物？
Read it out loud and you may probably get it. ahahas

alamak, that was super duper lame la! then all of us keep emphasising on the bold parts then kena mislead cheryl and jacey. hahas. then all four of us were laughing like keesiao while walking over to Swirl.

I must declare that 030409 was the most memorable day of my whole life.
I love you NYCB <3 and my tuba section <3

I thought I might break down today.

Yes, during band. And I don't know what's the reason that I should cry. I am not the soloist, I am not the section leader, I am not the super important person. But why did I feel the urge of crying?

I really don't know. The reason to cry, isn't as simple as just a reason. It's the heart and soul that is passionate about something.

But am I passionate about band? I don't know. Somehow I feel belonged, but I don't think I am putting enough effort to feel that belonging.

Somehow I wish the tears will come running down tonight, cos I really don't want to cry during the announcement of results no matter what it is.

I feel pathetic. I vent my stress and anger out on my friends. I ignored them, I got angry with them, I yelled at them, I contradict them. And I regretted almost immediately after realising that I had hurt somebody. But I couldn't apologise.

Because probably, once I said sorry, the tears will just flow down unstoppably.

Sorry friends. I think I really don't deserve all of you as my friends.

But on a brighter side, I guess it's time to face the music. The music of infinity. ;D Jiayous NYCB <3